If doing is being, then I'm a writer.
I've always had a hard time calling myself a writer. To me, a writer makes his living by writing, and I don't do that.
However, whether I choose 'writer' as my identity or not, there is no denying that I'm mostly writing these days. That is, when I wake up and decide what I'm going to do, it's always about writing. When I go to bed at night, I'm thinking about what I'm going to write the next day.
I schedule around my writing, not the other way around. I make space for writing -- whether I'm writing or not. And then, of course, I write.
I mean, it's pretty unavoidable. It does seem to be who I am right now. Almost everything feels else like a distraction.
I nurture the time, the energy, and most especially the dream space. That kind of floating feeling I get when I'm trying to be creative, where the present becomes hazy, the future non-existent, and the past is made of dreams and visions.
All other concerns get pushed aside, if possible.
I've settled into this life, and I am surprised by how much I'm doing and how much I like it.
I'm close to finishing Gargoyle Dreams. It's a good, solid book.
That makes three solid books in a row that I'm very proud of: The Last Fedora: the Gangster Golem Chronicles; and The Manic Pixie Dream Girl Murders; and now Gargoyle Dreams.
They emerged smoothly. They kept my interest all the way through. I think they pay off. I'm impressed with myself, by god.
I'm going to just keep writing, as long as possible. Whether I call myself a writer or not, I'm pretty much a writer in practice.
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