Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Tuskers. Chapter 21


As before, a rough first draft.  Be generous.


Chapter 21


Barbara woke up with the sun in her eyes.  She’d gone to sleep without closing the curtains, like she normally did.  
Why’d I do that? She wondered.  Did I hit the sauce last night?
A bolt of pain up her leg brutally reminded her of what had happened.  She groaned and rolled out of bed.  She tested her footing.  The leg was swollen.  She could feel the pounding of her pulse, and it was painful, but she used the trick she had learned of pretending the pain was happening to someone else and stood up.
She fell back into bed with a cry.
She immediately pushed herself up and tried again.  This time she’d stayed standing.
Now if rampaging swine weren’t surrounding her house, she probably would have allowed herself bed rest.  But these were no ordinary pigs.  She’d seen that look in the smart one’s eyes.  The mean one.  Unless she missed her guess, he was probably trying to figure out how to get in.
She made it the bathroom and too a pain pill.  Just one, because she wanted to be alert.
It was time for her to figure out what her vulnerabilities were.
She hobbled into the living room, and immediately saw the giant cracks.  She had an old plate glass window, illegal now.  But it seemed to her the glass was clearer than shatter glass and she’d connived to get some installed.  No one could get around the law better than a career law enforcement officer.  Which why some of them became corrupt.
Her ethical failures were small ones, petty ones.
One more blow -- however they’d managed that -- and that window was going down.  She went to the garage and started hauling the scrap lumber into the living room.  She had just enough to cover the picture window but that wouldn’t take care of the smaller windows.
She pulled one of her picture frames out of the wall.  The backing was plastic.  Strong enough to hold out for a short time.  Better than nothing.
She got to work.  The more she hobbled about, the more functional her leg became. She’d no doubt pay the price tonight, but it needed to be done.
By the time she was finished, her house looked half empty.  Much of the wood furniture had been broken apart.  The pictures on the walls.  The bookshelves.
It looked like the insides of the house had exploded and attached themselves to the walls and windows.  But it looked pretty secure to her.  The little monsters would probably be able to get in eventually, but not all at once and she still had thirty-six bullets.
She went to the closet and pulled out her leather jacket.  The electricity had gone off during the night, but despite the sweltering heat, she put the jacket on.  Then, as long as she was being silly, she pinned her old badge in its old spot. 
Now she was ready.
She poured herself a stiff drink and sat down and waited.

***

A crash woke her up.  It had come from the bedroom.
She hadn’t planned it, but in addition to her gun, she reached over to the magnetic knife rack and picked the biggest knife she had.
A pig had managed to get its head through one of the wooden slats she’d nailed across the window. He was squealing, unable to get in or out.
She examined it for a few moments.  Just a pig, one of the dumb ones.  She ran the blade across its throat, and the squealing was muted and then silenced.  She left the head hanging there.
“Next?” she called out.  “Which one of you bastards wants it next?  How about your leader?  Is he too much of a coward?”
I’m off my rocker, she thought.  It wasn’t the danger; that was making her feel alive.  No, it was the loneliness.  That’s why she was having a conversation with pigs.
“Come and get it, you little bastards.  Come on!”
There was a thump in the living room and she turned and strode purposefully toward the sound.  A smaller pig had squeeze through a gap, but a bigger pig was still trying to get in.
She pulled the gun and shot the one running around the living room.  Then she walked over and slit the throat of the bigger one.  Again she left it hanging.
That’s one way to fill the gaps, she thought, and giggled.
Yep, completely off my bonkers.
And then they were trying to come in from every direction and she was too busy to giggle or tell herself she was nuts.  Too busy killing.
By nightfall, she was covered with blood.  Almost too late it occurred to her that she had no light.  She managed to find time between battles to search for her old flashlight.  She found it with the rest of her police stuff in the closet.  It still had strong batteries, and its heft was reassuring.  She’d never actually had to wield it in action and she had always been curious.  She slammed it against the next intruder, and it had landed with a satisfying thud, and it still shone bright.
Not bad, she thought.  Again she chuckled, and that’s when she knew the frequency of attacks was diminishing.  She was finding time for thought, for humor. She found some candles and lit them in every room, well away from the walls.  She always had the fixings of a fire in the fireplace, though she almost never lit it even in the coldest winter nights. (Which by Crook County standards, wasn’t cold at all.)  She hated cleaning it up afterwards, but she liked the look and smell of the wood.
She took some papers off the table, and set them on fire.  (Wait, wasn’t that her driver’s license renewal?  Oh, well.  She’d be lucky to be alive, much less driving around.)
The fire was soon roaring, and it was atavistically satisfying.  The attacks came less and less, almost as if good old-fashioned fire was driving them away.  She checked her watch and was astonished that both the day and the following night were almost over.  She’d been besieged for almost a full day.
Boar heads stuck out of every wall, as if she was some kind of mad great white hunter.
“Bwana,” she said, out loud.
She heard a scream from outside.  It sounded like the most pissed off animal she’d ever heard.  Surprisingly human sounding.  
And somehow, she knew she’d won.  That the enemy was giving up.  That his dumber followers were defying the leader.
She checked her ammo.
And she still had five bullets.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Tuskers II is a thing.

I was just experimenting, but I'm already up to 12K words.  Huh.

I've brought back a character who wisely removed himself from the danger in the first book who I really like.  I have the original protagonists, and I've created some new characters.

I'm upping the threat.  Instead of one litter of mutant pigs, its going to be a bunch of them.  (Pigs are fertile at six months, they could average 10 pigs per litter...over a couple of years, you do the math.)

I'm letting myself write it fast, though I'm also letting myself get out of the house to go to the movies and work at Linda's store.  But even if I write it one third as fast as Tuskers, it is still a torrid pace.

I'm hoping to get halfway before I break off to do the final rewrite of The Dead Spend No Gold, and then immediately get back to it.

Best of all, I'm really enjoying it. 

That's it, you know.  I'm really enjoying it. 

That's all I need to say.

The writing is enough.

When I'm writing, I don't have that many doubts.

It's only when I'm not writing that I wonder if I'm wasting my time.

When I'm writing, I'm doing my best.  It isn't as though I'm not using all my creativity and skill.  I'm lost in the story, in the telling of the story, in the characters and events.  I'm saying it in a flow, that comes from inside.  It feels good.

If I set it aside and come back to it, I see all the flaws.  It can be dispiriting.  But then, when I correct the mistakes, it can be rejuvenating.

I have decided to compartmentalize my writing.  The expectations of publication are beyond me.  I simply can't seem to affect that one way or the other.

But the writing I can do.

So that's what I'm going to do.  Just write.  Without any expectation.  Just do it.

I wasn't sure at first if that would be enough, but the more I write, the more satisfied I am with writing.  I enjoy it.  It's uplifting.  It fulfills me.

That's enough.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Tuskers. Chapter 20


As always, remember this is a rough first chapter draft and be kind.


Chapter 20


When Pederson came to, the only thing that hurt was his little finger.  The air bag had exploded out the front window, and apparently also broken his smallest digit.
How did that happen? He wondered, dazed.
Somehow, he had ended up on the right side of the car.  He must have unlatched his seatbelt earlier, in some unconscious effort to get away.  He reached for the passenger door handle and winced at the pain.  He used his left hand instead and tumbled out onto the road.  He was disoriented for a moment, then got to his hands and knees.  Again a shooting pain in his finger made him cry out.
He staggered to his feet, this time tucking his finger away.  He reached into the cab.  The glove box opened at a slant, getting caught halfway down on the right side, but it was enough for Pederson to reach in with his left hand and pulled out the first aid kit.  He immobilized his finger, and immediately it stopped hurting as much, and he realized that half the pain was coming from the anticipation and now that it was safely wrapped his brain was relenting.
The second thing he looked for was his gun.  He’d had it on the seat next to him.  But search as he might, he couldn’t find it anywhere. 
The bow and arrow box was lying in the middle of the road, as if beckoning him.  He walked over and picked it up, and while he was at it, kicked the other items out of the road and over the side of the cliff, like a good citizen. 
Just in time, for as he was finishing up, he heard sirens approaching.  Two fire trucks came swerving around the corner, followed by a cop car.  The first truck slowed down, but he waved them on, and the fire trucks kept going.  The policeman stopped.
“You OK, Mr. Pederson?”
Pederson recognized Steve Altman, one of the few other citizens of the valley who also knew Pederson’s past.  He’d been a security guard in Silicon Valley.  He’d gotten in trouble once for falling asleep on the job and Pederson had gone to bat for him, saving his job.  So when the cop got a job locally, it hadn’t been hard to convince him to stay quiet.
“I’m good, Steve.  There is nothing you can do here.  I’ll call the tow truck.”
“You sure?”
Pederson nodded.  “What’s going on?”
“The Silverstein’s house is on fire,” Altman said.  “It sounds bad.”
“You better get going then.”
The policeman nodded and waved and accelerated away. 
It wasn’t until he was long gone before Pederson realized the other casualty of the wreck was his cellphone, which was broken right down the middle.
He calculated the distances.  He figured it was six miles to his house by road, and three miles overland.
He glanced back at the truck.  It was totaled.  Most of the supplies inside had survived.  If someone was desperate enough to steal them, they were welcome to have them.  The supplies had been overstock, really.  Just stuff he’d bought to fill his truck because he had the room and the money. 
He stepped to the side of the road.  There was a steep cliff, about fifty feet high, then a few rolling hills, and then the bottom of the valley. If he headed up the dry creek from there, it was smooth sailing to his place.
There was the outline of a deer trail to his left that he thought he could probably negotiate and he started that way.  Then at the last second, he turned around and grabbed the box with the bow and arrows.
It wasn’t an easy descent.  He was starting to feel his age.  His legs were getting wobbly.  His right hand was pretty useless in stabilizing him.  And the box was bulky.  Finally, he let the box slide the final few yards, and slid down on his butt.  He hit a rock on his tail bone on the way down, and gasped for breath for a few minutes, while the excruciating pain shot through his back.  He almost passed out.
The pain eventually passed, leaving a dull ache. 
He lay on his hip and opened the box.  Taking out the pieces one by one, and examining them.  He unfolded the instructions.  His engineer’s brain quickly made sense of them, and he was able to assemble to bow without much trouble. 
He stood up.
Stringing it was a bit harder, not because he didn’t know what to do but because of his diminishing energy and strength and his immobile finger. 
There were twelve arrows in the quiver, which he thought was pretty generous.  Everything had a high tech gleam to it, a pleasing design, and his Silicon Valley persona appreciated the beautiful functionality.  This wasn’t one of those high priced bullshit objects that was made just for looks and brand name bragging, this weapon was the real deal.  He could feel it.
He put an arrow on the string and tried pulling it back.  Oomph.  The pull was a little much.  He perused the instructions again, adjusted the bow, and was able to pull the string the second time.  But it was awkward.
He unwrapped the bandage around his right hand, almost crying out from the pain, and rewrapped it so that his first two fingers were free.  Now he could pull the bow much easier, and though it was tough to get full extension, he knew that the more powerful the pull, the more force the arrow would have, and the greater distance.
He took aim at what he gauged to be an eight-inch circumference fir tree about twenty feet away and let go the arrow.  He jerked it, and the arrow went flying far to the left.  He marked the location of the arrow and tried again.  This time, he released the arrow as if he was pulling the trigger of a gun. 
It was inordinately pleasing that he missed by only a few inches.
He sensed the gun analogy was the right one.  Pull the string, take a deep breath, let it out slowly, and release…
He tracked down the two arrows, put one back on the bowstring and the other in the quiver and started off.

***
 
It was only a few hundred yards along that he realized he’d made an enormous and avoidable mistake.  It was a hot Arizona afternoon and he was sweating profusely.  And getting thirstier with every step.
Like an idiot, he’d left gallons of bottled water in his truck.
He contemplated going back, but was pretty sure that he’d have a hard time making it up the cliff, certainly with the bow.  He wasn’t willing to relinquish the bow.  Better to stay on the flats and just make a beeline for his house and barn.  A couple more miles was all.  He should make it in less than an hour, even with the uneven terrain.
But he was slowing down.  Maybe two hours, he thought.

***

He sat on the side of the trail, his head down.  How long had he been sitting here?  Maybe it will take three hours to get home.
And unbidden came the thought, Maybe never.
Big Stanford engineer brain, Silicon Valley Master of the Universe.  Forgetting water.  What any dumb cow would have thought of first.

***

The pig probably did him a favor. 
Pederson’s thinking had been confused for a while.  He wasn’t even sure he was heading in the right direction anymore.  He found himself sitting in the dirt as often as he was stumbling around.
A single threatening grunt, and his brain focused instantly.  He saw that the sun had descended closer to the horizon.  It was past noon.
He stood up, threading the arrow with shaking hands.  Where had the grunt come from?  Then the pig did him another favor.  It grunted again, just ahead of him on the trail.
The pigs came around the turn and stopped, seemingly as surprised to see him as he was to see them.  There were four of them, but only one of them mattered.
Pederson recognized Himmler.  One of the smart ones.   One of the mutants, the one with the prissy little mustache.  The javelina examined him, his eyes taking in the bow as if he understood what it was.  He grunted, and the other pigs moved forward, surrounding Himmler, giving him cover and depriving Pederson of a clear shot.
Another grunt, which sounded to Pederson’s ear very much like a command, and the three pigs started forward.  But Pederson ignored them.  He was likely to get only one shot off, maybe two if he was lucky.  He wasn’t going to be able to kill them all.
But he had an instinct that he didn’t have to kill them all.  He only had to kill Himmler and the others would be just pigs, afraid of men, mostly harmless.
When the three attackers were half the distance, Pederson finally had a shot.  Himmler sensed what was happening too late and turned to run, but by doing so he turned sideways.  Pederson had been aiming for the chest, and was going to miss by a foot to the left, but by turning broadside, Himmler had made himself a bigger target.
The arrow thudded into his neck.
The pig squealed, and his scent glands released, filling the clearing with the stink of death.  It thrashed, turning over and over again, which only drove the arrow deeper.  It didn’t just slowly subside in movement, it stopped in mid-motion and collapsed.
The other three pigs had turned around.  They looked around as if confused, saw Pederson pulling a second arrow out his quiver, and they turned to run.
Pederson released the second arrow, knowing he’d probably missed, but angry enough to try.  To his amazement, he caught a retreating pig in the rear end and it tumbled head over heels and lay still. 
One less to worry about, Pederson thought.
He couldn’t dislodge the arrow from Himmler.  It had apparently embedded itself in bone.  He was able to draw the arrow out of the soft tissue of the second dead pig, though. 
He went on, his thirst forgotten for a moment, feeling pretty good about himself.  The mighty hunter.
That feeling only lasted until the next corner.  Waiting for him was another dozen pigs, and standing thirty feet back was a single pig, who regarded him with calculating eyes.   This one had hair hanging down past its mouth, like a Fu Manchu mustache.
Genghis, Pederson thought.
Then he thought, Shit.
He raised his bow, knowing it was hopeless.
The javelinas must have heard the whine of the motorcycle first, because they started milling about in panic, despite the commanding grunts of the mutant pig. 
Then Pederson heard it.  The motorcycle went whizzing past Genghis and bowled over a couple of the smaller javelinas, and roared up to Pederson’s side.  He stopped and grinned and through the dirt and grime, Pederson recognized Barry Hunter.
“Hop on, neighbor,” the man said.
Pederson had never felt so happy to see another person than at that moment.  He put the arrow in the quiver and climbed behind his rescuer, holding the bow with one hand and the grabbing Hunter around the waist with the other.
The motorcycle accelerated away, weaving dangerously for few moments, almost giving the pigs a chance to catch them.  Then the pigs were left behind, obscured by a cloud of dust.

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Have started Tuskers II and other things.

I've started writing Tuskers II but at a very moderate pace.  The Tuskers experience was pretty crazy, and not something I'd try to duplicate.  Unless, of course, it comes on me in a frenzy like that, then how could I refuse?

Thing is, I'm staring at the computer for so long, my eyes are having a hard time.  If I make the mistake of getting up and driving somewhere it's like my eyes can't adjust.  I have to remind myself to lay down and close my eyes for like fifteen minutes to let them to shift back.

I saw a documentary on the Woodmans last night, who are (were) artists.  And it made the case that artists are so focused they are dysfunctional in the real world.

To get away from my computer, I've been going to the Bookmark and helping out there.  Linda got like 450 books yesterday, for instance, which is like having a Volkswagen beetle bug land on your table.  She feels pretty overwhelmed at times.

I'm a whiz at filing.  I'm quick, and decisive.  My goal is to get every book we have out on the floor if possible and to find ways to do that.

Plus, I kind of enjoy it.  And I get to talk to people.

I could go to my own store to talk to people, but that become more intensive and interrupts the rhythm of my employees   My own store is humming along, thanks to Cameron and Matt, so I prefer to leave them to it.




I'll be doing the final rewrite of The Dead Spend No Gold next week.  My two editors were supposed to just sort of copy-edit this time, but they found some more substantial things for me to do.

So I'm not one to turn down possible improvements.

I'll have to be very careful this time.  Not just click acceptances, and not just mash the two edits together.  I need to take each page and be sure it is completely done before moving on.

I'm going to ask Lara to do one more quick clean edit.  Nothing but copy-editing.

I think there is a point of diminishing returns in rewrites.  The book was good, it got better, I'm hoping it will get better again.  That's it.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Tuskers. Chapter 19


Chapter 19


The SUV started smoking from the engine first, but then I felt the heat and smelled the flames from beneath.  The sparks had set fire to the oils beneath the car.  The wheel rims were also getting off kilter and the car was wobbling.  The car wasn’t going much faster than a walk now, and the pigs were sprinting ahead in their excitement and then circling back.
It wouldn’t be long now.  All I’d accomplished by my gambit was to get farther away from shelter.
I stopped the car.  I had to do something.  It was either burn to death or be eaten by pigs, and I wasn’t sure which was worse. 
I guess panic will decide, I thought, in those last moments of life.
No, fuck that.  I wasn’t through.  I looked out the back window.  The trailer carrying the motorcycle had four feet high walls and was two feet from the ground.  A good six feet, altogether.  I doubted a pig could jump that high.  The sides had wide slates, but they were metal, and it looked to me like the animals probably wouldn’t be able to do much more than push their snouts into the gaps.
If I could climb back there, I’d be in a cage, but at least I’d be away from the fire.  I opened the glove box, praying there was a glass punch.  There it was, a little screwdriver shaped tool.  I turned around and pushed the punch against the back window.  It shattered. 
The javelinas went crazy when I poked his head out.  The gap between the head of the trailer and the SUV was wide enough that the pigs could get a feet and a half in, on either side.
But I realized there was a two-foot wide part in the middle where they couldn’t get to me.
Never had I regretted my two-hundred pound body more than now.  But…well the weight was actually pretty well distributed.  So I’d always told myself, and now it was being put to the test.  No doubt, I’d lost a good ten or fifteen pounds over the last few days.  Which just reminded me how hungry and thirsty I was.
The heat was getting uncomfortable.  There was nothing for it but to try.  I squirmed my way out, barely able to squeeze through the window.  In my wiggling, I was moving from size to size, and I felt a nip on one arm, and then the other.  One of the pigs got a good grip on my shirt and started pulling me out of the safe zone.  I held on tight to the frame of the trailer, and the shirt ripped before I my grip broke. 
I made it the rest of the way and tumbled headfirst into the trailer. 
The bike was in the exact middle, and the safest place for me quickly proved to be sitting on the actual seat.
The fire in the car was really taking off now, sending sputtering oils into the air, landing and burning through my shirt and trousers.  I’d saved myself a few minutes at best. 
I looked down at my hands.  I still had the keys gripped tightly against my palms, so tightly that there was a white imprint.  There were two keys, I realized.  One of them smaller than the other.
Jesus, when was the last time I drove a motorcycle?
Here’s where I got really lucky.  I mean, I knew I was lucky all along, but this was the thing that really saved me.  The bike rack was such that the wheels were off the ground.  When I found the ignition switch, the wheels turned freely.  I experimented with clutch and the handle grips, and it all came back to me.   I was pretty sure I could do it.
I unsnapped the bike from the rack.  I had to turn the bike around, and I levered it on its rear tire and managed to maneuver it so it was facing the back.  All that separated me from the road was a single latch in the middle of the back of the trailer.
I revved the engine.  I was reaching over for the latch, when I saw the leader of the javelinas come trotted from the side, grunted what sounded like orders.  The pigs massed behind the gate, and I realized I’d land right in the middle of them.
It was only going to get worse, I realized.  I sprung the latch and shot out of the trailer, flying over most of the assembled animals, and landing on the backs of a couple more, and then I was on the asphalt and flying away.
I heard whooping and hollering and realized it was me.
It was the most exciting moment of my life.


Bias confirmation.

This is probably the very definition of bias confirmation, but I always check on Shelf Awareness to see which bookstores are closing and why.

And it seems to me that, almost every time (I'd say every time, but never speak in absolutes...never) the bookstore will say something along the lines of:

"We did everything right.  We served coffee and had signings and promoted events and everyone just loved us..."

It's never:  "We're lazy bastards who just sold books, never promoted, and brought coffee to work in a thermos."

Now it is possible that the lazy bastards who close are so under the radar that they don't deserve an announcement in Shelf Awareness.

But I chose to believe that bookstores who take care of business survive, and bookstore who somehow believe their job is to be a community center providing free services and labor and space intensive activities have made the job so difficult for themselves that they quit from burnout or lack of money or both.

Like I said, admittedly confirming my bias.

The latest failure was on there today.  "Coffee Beans and Books."

I probably should just leave that one alone -- let the title itself speak for itself.

But really, when "coffee" comes before "books" in your store name, there is something fucked up about that.