I was formatting NEARLY HUMAN yesterday, and couldn't help but read it, too.
It's not ready.
It's just not.
I went to bed last night thinking, over and over again -- how can I make it better? What is it missing?
And the answer came to me, and it was a change in major character again.
So I think I still have a basic plot. The world building has been done. I have the characters I need.
I just need to change the entire motivation and emotional nature of the lead character. That's all. Just requires and entire re-writing of the whole book, that's all.
I don't think this scares me the way it used to. In the last six months I've learned that I can write a lot if I let myself go. I can do this.
Question is, is the book worth saving? I feel the answer is YES. At least I think so. I guess I'll find out when I restart.
Some of the chapters I have to restart from bloody scratch. I have more than enough words that I can jettison anything that doesn't fit and can't be changed.
I'm positive now that I simply can't afford the luxury of discovering the entire plot as I'm writing, much as I like doing it that way -- or expect to have to do a whole lot of changes. Maybe it's all been good. A re-introduction to the process of writing. I started off with the wrong tone -- the wrong tack, and discovered I needed to go back to the way I used to approach books.
I think I can make all the changes in a month or two.
But it's going to be at least TWO YEARS for one book. I took enough breaks to write the first drafts of two other novels, so there's that. But still, I never expected it to take so long.
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