Watched a documentary about Hannah Arendt. The parallels to today are overwhelming. I ordered "The Origins of Totalitarianism" for the store.

Nothing about what is happening today is new. All has happened before and all has been foretold.  

 

Had a long involved dream about meeting an old girlfriend. When I woke up, it was somehow about the Arendt documentary, but I'm not sure how. It has something to do with not knowing anything about her and her life that is strange to me. Her and some other childhood friends. And, when you get down to it, probably most people I might want to talk to from that long ago.  

If you looked me up online, you'd find pages of stuff about the store and my writing. I didn't set out to create that, it just happened. 

Anyway, because I know absolutely nothing about my former girlfriend, my dream was pretty creative in filling in the holes. There's this thing again where I'm trying too hard to  fit in, to be liked. Instead of accepting that she and her friends want nothing to do with me. I try so hard to understand what's she doing that I'm adrift in a sea of nonsense.  

Wake up realizing that I need to leave well enough alone.  

 

Sisters Betsy and Susie are coming over tonight for pizza.  I only get to see them occasionally so it's a treat.